I haven't written in a while. I've been working hard and working out harder. I'm down to 181 and hopefully this week I'll break 180. It's going to be a big milestone, but I know I can do it. I have to figure out little treats that I will give myself when I get to certain points. Probably every 10 lbs.

I'm getting a little bored with running. I have to figure out something else to do...maybe the elliptical. That just means I have to do it at the Y. Maybe I'll focus more on walking, elliptical and hill climber like I did today.
Who knows...let's just get to 179!!!

I'm feeling better this morning. I ran (HIIT) and feel awesome. I can't wait for tomorrow so I can work out more. I need to get to 3500 cals burned this week.

I'm so upset. I got a huge project at 4.30 and I ended up missing my bus. By the time I got home 5 minutes ago, I was too tired to go to the gym. I hate this. None of these fucking people have ever been fat. They don't know what it feels like to gain weight because you don't go to the gym every fucking day. And because of them I can't work out. All I want is to lose weight and I can't do that if I don't have time to do it. I already don't have enough time and now they're preventing me from working out at all. I feel so helpless and angry and upset. It's so FUCKING ANNOYING.